By: Ellen Curley

Ellen Curley — Wed, 09 Apr 2008 22:02:21 +0000

Hi Stephane,
I like what you said about embracing your inferiority or superiority, etc. It makes a lot of sense. It seems many men either dominate women or are dominated by them. My husband tends to let me dominate him even when I’ve talked to him about it, complained about it, many times. I think its his way of avoiding making decisions. He feels most comfortable focusing on one thing and leaving the organizing up to me. I’ve noticed many men do this.
Another thing you said that helped me was about how students project their feelings of inferiority and superiority on their teachers. Having taught Art History as an adjunct I’ve been on both sides of that coin. I look back on different things I said in contradiction to my teachers and also read some of the critical reviews I received from my students. Looking at it all from the perspective you gave makes it easier to let it go.
As far as Chakras go I think I’m leaving the sacral and sitting in the solar plexus. I still have feelings of inferiority and some of superiority, but I really don’t care anymore. I see that everything fits somewhere in the gamut between polarities.
What seems alien is the heart chakra and I wonder about the 3 affirmations. As I understand the physics of the universe I really don’t see how it could care less or even be aware of my, or anyone’s abundance and prosperity. Whether I am enough or not is irrelevant in the bigger scheme of things. It’s only relevant to me and those tied to my life. Letting go of or getting what I need also seems to be a roll of the dice. So maybe you could see why I both fear and welcome change.
I have had about half of my family die from old age, Alzheimer’s, alcoholism and leukemia. Being an animal lover I’ve had to make decisions on life and death about 20 or so times and watch people and animals die. The feeling of helplessness is hard to deal with. Especially when you’ve made bad choices that made things worse or didn’t think ahead. Every time I’ve prayed to something to make me more insightful, but every time I overlook something that becomes apparent after the fact. It’s ridiculous and counter productive to blame myself for all incidences and I really don’t intend to. I just wonder about the heart chakra. How do we know that we are truly loved and by whom or what? How do I know that everyone that went before me is OK? I know there is order (patterns) in chaos, but if those patterns are no different than what I see here in this worldly existence I don’t see how things can be much more than a roll of the dice.

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By: Ellen Curley